So I've been really depressed lately and my ex wants to 'help me' I've also recently started cutting which he doesn't know about. He lives quite far away so I never get to see him but he wants to be there for me so I have someone to talk to. But I don't want him to know how sad I get and I don't want him to ever see me like this but I miss him so much it's killing me. I feel like it's best for everyone if I shut him out, do u think this is the right thing to do?
By shutting him out you might shut yourself in. If he is willing to help and truly cares about you, I think you should let him. He might just be the reason you’ll overcome your depression. He just might be the helping hand you need.
You may not know specifically what I'm referring to, but that's okay. You want to know something, lovely? It pains me to know that I'm not alone. It hurts me, the knowledge destroys me and eats away at me. I can't deal with remembering. These memories are going to ruin everything, already having a drastic impact on my relationship. I don't know how much more I can take of this, of being dirty. I'm sorry. I'm really fucking sorry.
You’re right. I probably don’t know what you are referring too, but I do understand the feelings you are going through. Do not apologize, for you have done nothing wrong. Your partner should know how much this pains you. They should understand that these are hard times for you and not everything will be perfect in your relationship and you should NOT pretend things are.
Don’t keep these thoughts and feeling to yourself, they will control you and you may find yourself in a hole dug too deep. Find someone you can confine in. Someone you can trust.